Showing posts with label Sleep issues. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sleep issues. Show all posts

January 7, 2016

Cannabis and the Veterans Suicide Tsunami

By 2014, waves of soldiers surged in the tides of our modern wars, with 2.7 million veterans lost in the detritus of conflict, as compared to Vietnam's 2.6 million. Both populations amplifying the undercurrents of the veteran suicide tsunami, inundating our communities. Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), the third highest psychiatric diagnosis for returning veterans, erodes buoyancy and dulls surfing the edges of sanity. The veteran rates of PTSD are 9% when returning, with a sharp liquid curve up to 31% a year later.

Swimming in the undercurrents, therapists report higher rates where 50% seeking help, only half get minimum treatment, thus triggering a seaquake spraying untreated veterans across communities, prisons and institutions. Army vets wash up in 67% of PTSD cases, where 19% received a traumatic brain injury, and 7% have both. Preceded by the military suicide epidemic, add bias in reporting veterans accidental deaths, plus under-reported statistics and treatment, and no central data veterans ride the white-capped waves suffering in silence, through ineffective systems, pour in poor record keeping from institutions, sets a consummate storm.

In the deep-sea of misery, the re-experiencing of vivid and graphic memories take form, in and out of reality. Often no memories and sometimes we cannot forget, a deluge of fears, repeating disturbing intrusions, running from bombs and bullets the green ghosts skip across the periscope screen. Studies point to previous trauma with increased risk and severity deepens when the soldier killed, failed to save a comrade, handled the dead, and saw atrocities. Tumbling further for veterans incarcerated, victims of military sexual trauma (MST), multiple deployments, childhood traumatization and or have substance abuse issues, all increasing suicidal behavior and risk taking. Rising tides in women veterans issues, higher rates of childhood abuse, MST, domestic violence and assault combined with combat increases the stress response and plunges with amputees and prisoners of war, where 37% are more likely to succumb to suicide. To cope, many veterans self medicate, often leading to substance abuse and an exacerbated mental health.

Where 39% abuse alcohol and 3% harder drugs, an increasing number of veterans are turning to cannabis to quell the agitating flashbacks, regurgitating anxiety attacks, gushing nightmares and flooding dissociation. Veterans using cannabis to quell the storm, report higher coping and increased resilience, significant anxiety reduction and a better quality of sleep, plus a full range of emotions to include joy and happiness. The hypothalamus and amygdala mediate stress through the endocannabinoid and limbic systems, tripping or skipping over the flight or fight survival mechanism. Cannabinoids function in fear extinction, role switching, and regulating the neuroendocrine system governing behavioral responses, resetting the mind's ocean; with calm, deep and cool convections. To quell the veteran suicide tsunami claiming 112,000 lives in the last 14 years, make cannabis legal and available to veterans.

January 21, 2009

Dissociation, Fructose, Insomnia and Escape

I was just having a moment of depersonalization and derealization, where I felt apart from self in away that I felt as if I was beginning to float above myself. No, I am not under the influence of any mind altering drugs. I am doing research on PTSD, mental health and veterans. It is 3:16 AM and I took my nighttime meds (100mg hydroxyzine and 1600 gabapentin) at about midnight and just ate four ice cream sandwiches (I know, I have to get a hold of this sugar addiction).

I am feeling kind of tired, and have been having insomnia for the past three nights. Four or five nights ago I had a nightmare that I tried waking up from and could not awaken myself So, that was a run down on where my mind set is right now, I am in a zone of dissociative self-states. I feel outside of myself, that my boundaries have been blurred. I think that I sometimes get caught up in feeling like this as a means to escape I realized this state of mind when eating the last ice cream sandwich and felt as though rising above myself, I looked down at my hand and it was out of focus. When I refocused and landed it back onto myself and felt the resolidifying of self

June 23, 2008

Antidepressants

Well, I have been taking some new medication to help adjust my serotonin levels. I have been taking wellbutrin for about two years now, it worked well by itself until about 6 months or so. I had been getting depressed again, having serious trouble with my memory and dissociative states.

I had enough so I researched antidepressants (again) and found one that would augment my treatment. This one is prescribed for PTSD, OCD, anxiety and improving memory (oh yeah don't forget depression). AAhh, BINGO. I had hit upon the holy grail of my neurosis. I have been taking the new meds for 8 days now, three to six weeks before my neurotransmitter levels even out. The side effects have begun to dissipate. Two days after I started taking the fluvoxamine, an SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor), I began to feel a little bit better. I noticed that my mood had begun to lighten up somewhat. So now I am taking wellbutrin, an NDRI (norepinephrine dopamine reuptake inhibitor), modafinil (a quasi-stimulant for sleep-apnea) and the fluvoxamine. The modafinil kicks the fatigues (from both depression and sleep-apnea) ass which is all good, I have been taking it for about a month now. Well, enough of that crap...

School...I was having extreme trouble with one of my classes this summer. Cognitive Psychology, the class was only one month long. EEEEE, yeah you read it right, it was to much for me. I dropped it because it was stressing me out big time. I do not need it for my degreed program, I am working on a minor in psychology. After this summer I will only need one more psych class to qualify and have two more summers to get that done so no big deal. With the memory problems and disassociative issues studying as much as I needed to began to be an all day every day thing. I failed the first quiz and got a D on the first exam, ouch. These were my very first F and D in my college career. I had a 3.4 at JCTC and I have a 3.6 at U of L, so I was not about to let those suck ass grades ruin my gpa. I am killin my Substance Abuse class, there is a bunch of reading to do. But the thing is that I want to read this stuff, it will greatly enhance my abilities to be a therapist. Most of the people I will be working with will have these issues. And I have done some field work, you know, research on this issue on my own. So it will be good to have a, multivaried perspective (yeah thats it) on the subject.