Have you ever felt so sad, that sad where zoning out can mask momentarily? Where a laugh can give you a spritzer of joy, but falls flat into felling of sorrow?
I do not want to take my medications anymore, they make me feel less of a man. I want to feel my virility as I effortlessly strum her passion.
That sadness that engulfs and to answer I call upon disconnection, not just from everything and everyone but the self that I seek as it flees my rationality.